Miscoupling
Colors-
myraid colors
paint my slumber.
no, not the dreams…
i never reach there.
my slumber is thick,
it engulfs me
all day-
and at night,
color blind
i stumble on some carcass,
dreams that were out there
in open
far too long-
dreams that i dare not let
into my eyes, or heart, or mind.
the grind
was water tight,
rigid,
conforming.
no space to see
beyond the stiff walls,
no whiff of a horizon,
no sky overhead,
no fluff of a cloud.
everything around
was well formed,
solid,
impenetrable,
everything around
confounding
in one shapeless
presence
the present.
i was too scared
to dare
inch out
it spread far and wide
how could i hide
in such magnificiance of colors!
i let the shades envelop me.
myraid shades
when mixed
created a thick dark rivulet,
and i sucked in the darkness,
sleep walking
from day to day-
skipping the nights
where i let dreams rot,
not
for lack of faith or belief,
it was a relief
to let the miscarriage
prevent the murder
of a child of miscoupling.